everything

sometimes i just get really upset at the world like i know i should be explaining or something but this is what i'm thinking about so this is what i'm writing about
(anyway i've forsaken the majority of punctuation)
but i just like
can't we all get along
i know it's a sentiment but i mean can't we all just live together and not care what somebody's orientation or gender or political affiliation or face color is
like
today in gym they were like "okay boys leave" and then a couple seconds they were like "now girls can go"
and i mean what if you don't identify on the binary gender system what if you're genderqueer or genderfluid or you don't have or want a gender
and i'm really glad i have three friends who care about stuff like this because before i didn't have anybody and i am so lonely sometimes but then i remember that there are at least three people who care about me and it's just
nice

i feel really different from three months ago
which is pretty weird because three months is only a quarter of a year and a quarter of a year is like one three hundred twentieth of your life
how much can you change in one three hundred twentieth of a life?
apparently enough
i am simultaneously so much lonelier and so much happier and everything is just
nice

today's been one of those depressing days where i feel really bad and i don't want to be here today is one of the lonely days
saturday was one of the happy days
(my uncle taught me archery)
i don't think i can fit all my thoughts in at once but i'm going to try and be here again
wow today is a really bad day
i love you all <3